Hiiii from sunny California. I wish I could say it’s warm too, but it’s not… To be honest, it’s pretty f-ing cold! And with cold I mean around 12-16 celcius degrees, with a wind. So not really Scandinavia-winter-cold, but you know, cold for California, and I don’t have any Winter jackets with me. So, I’m cold 24/7. ANYWHO. I thought I’d check in to write down some thoughts on being back in California for the fifth time in my life, as well as share some of the photos I’ve shot here so far… All of them iPhone photos – I hope that’s OK!
Firstly, this is a special trip. You see, I broke up with my boyfriend of over 5 years in the Fall, sold most of my stuff, moved out, and now I’m here. It’s a very weird feeling. I’m doing this trip to kind of figure out what I want to do with my life, what my next step is. One thing is for sure though, and that is what I want to continue developing my business – I love working for myself and having the kind of work tasks that I have! I would be open to taken employment somewhere in the world if it was really good… I would still keep my business though.
Hmm, we’ll see! The biggest issue is figuring out where I wanna live. Go back to Vasa? Stockholm? Someplace else? Hmm, a lot of questions still unanswered, and it’s freaking me out.
I like to have a clear path, a clear mindset on what’s next. I live for goals, and now I feel like I don’t have one. Well, I know that I want to continue developing my business, that I want to stay fit and active keeping my body strong, eventually get a dog I’ll love to pieces, and also to find the man of my dreams. I don’t know if this is a weird thing to write or not, but I’m gonna write it anyway, I’d love to get married. Haha, what a thing to write when you’re “newly” single!? But, that’s kind of one of the reasons I’m single too… For me, marriage is really important, something I’ve always dreamed of! My parents were never married, their relationship was a disaster and so was my childhood. That’s why I’ve always thought that “one day, one day I’ll get married and do everything to make that marriage work and be amazing”. Oh well, not today, but hopefully someday.
OHHH well now I’m super off-topic, I’m sorry! This is probably gonna be a really weird blog-post… But, that is a perfect reflection of my mind right now, so why the heck not?
So, California. I’m staying in Santa Monica right now. I’ve never stayed here before but always kind of wanted to, as it’s close to the ocean! But, I must say that I’m a bit stressed out by the number of people here… Not where I live, but at the beach, phew! Sure, I knew about it as I’ve been to Santa Monica beach a million times before, but still. I kind of wish I was in Malibu, Laguna Beach or Hermosa Beach instead for a bit more of peace & quiet at the beach. But oh well, what can you do, sometimes you make the wrong decisions and that’s OK.
Now you’re probably wondering how long I’m gonna stay in California, and to be honest I’m not really sure myself by this point. But, at least for a month, meaning until the first weeks of February. We’ll see! It all depends on what I decide that I wanna do with my life, where I wanna live and if I find a place to stay at over where I wanna live. I’m kind of vibing a quiet house in the countryside and getting a dog… But, that thought might change quickly, so… If anyone has any thoughts/on ideas on what I should do, please do share, lol. I honestly wish that someone would just give me all my answers already.
Hmm, how should we end this weird blog post? Maybe by just writing that it feels good to be back in California for a 5th time, despite everything. It really does. A lot of mixed feelings, but still pretty good. So, now I’m gonna out and enjoy it! Follow me on Bloglovin‘, if you aren’t already, to stay updated on when I post my new post. It’ll be soon, I promise ♥